near death & justin timberlake

the past few days have been pretty interesting.

friday i was driving home & it was raining cats & dogs. i get to the red light. stop. it turns green. the car in front of me goes. i start going & crazy man comes out of right field & runs the stale as a mug red light. somehow i SLAM on my brakes, skid, & stop INCHES from his car. i lost my breath for a minute, shook my head, & wondered how i didn't crash the crap into his car. it's like a little angel put his hand in between both cars. that junk was supernatural because my car shouldn't have stopped so quick. i was braced for the wreck & everything. man. the scort & i live to see another day. and i know one reason why...

friday night i had planned to go dancing with some friends. i hadn't been in forever & it was just time. boy did we have a blast. i haven't danced/laughed that hard in a while. we had just requested justin timberlake "my love" (because that is one of my jams) when a guy i met in nashville the other week came up to me. i screamed & gave him a hug & told him he best come dance, but his face was rather serious. he asked me to walk outside with him for a minute, so i did.

he told me that one of his friends needed a girl, a "good girl," to talk to. i was like- ok, when? give her my number & she can call me sometime- they're about to play my love, i gotta go dance. but he meant right then, right there. so, i sucked up my selfishness/love for JT & walked a few blocks to his car in the cold rain. at first i was like- this sucks. i wanted to dance to justin, it's cold & wet, who am i going to talk to & about what? i'm not a counselor or a psychologist, etc. etc. in other words, complaining in my head like a jerkface.

when i got in the car, though, i saw a girl who was obviously upset. she thanked me continually for leaving to come talk to her and i listened as she told me the story of her marriage falling apart because of infidelity. i was thinking- i'm not married, i have no boyfriend, i haven't dealt with cheating partners (thank God), so how in the world can what i say help this girl? but, as always, God put some words in my mouth & i talked to her about the past & forgiveness & new beginnings & God. and after that i prayed for her, right there in the random car. it was pretty awesome, i'm not gonna lie. i gave her a hug & told her she should come to church with me sometime & meet up for coffee or something. i hope it works out.

the next day i had an email from my friend who pulled me off the dance floor thanking me so much. he'd only met me in nashville a few weeks ago, but he said he knew i was the kind of person that would do something like that. um, dang. i can't tell you how great that made me feel. i hope that's what people think of me. even though i'm human and complain like a bi-otch, i'm so glad God gives me opportunities like that- even if it takes me a few minutes to recognize them. the next day i was thinking about it more & i remembered the near wreck. well, i know one reason i was kept alive for another day...let's hope there are lots more days that i can actually use for His good. it's all about LOVE. i pray for more opportunities to share it.