the gambler...er...rambler

things are so good right now.

God is teaching me tons.

my lifegroup is crazy awesome- i love that they're all so committed & no one ever calls to cancel or say they can't come because they have to study or have to stay late at work or anything. they show up, they're ALL open & honest, OK with being brought out in love even though it's hard, OK with bringing others out in love even though it's hard, OK with being goofy & laughing hysterically at stupid stuff, OK with crying with each other over things, etc etc. this list could go on forever. thanks, God, for my group. and happy birthday to calliebug.

i'm so excited about the Babcock Center "awards ceremony" at their meeting in a few weeks. what an honor for Midtown. i think my LG is gonna try to do some more serving with them soon. can't wait.

my cousin jessica turned 40 this week & we had a huge family bday party for her that included lasagna & a talent show (my mom's idea of course). if i told you my mom, sis, & i wore flamingo hats & do-wop danced behind my dad lipsyncing to "my girl" by the temptations would you belive me? well you better because that happened. i'm sorry there aren't pictures of this amazingness.

the 1st murder mystery dinner was pretty darn fun even though i couldn't really stay "in character." i mean, if it was something dead serious that i absolutely needed to do it for i would, but i just wanted to chat with people as mellie & not as flirtastic cindy. maybe next time i'll take it more seriously. we'll see. my best friend was the murderer & my boyfriend got killed!

work is still awesome- every day i'm wondering how i actually get a paycheck for what i get to do. so great.

i can't believe it's already march! what the heck!?

american idol is strange this season & the guy i really wanted to get in the top 12 didn't make it. maybe he'll get in on the wild card. he sang "georgia" & played his keyboard during hollywood week & omg he was the bomb. i voted for him a bajillion times. reminds me of my friend josh hoge- just super soulful & sick. here's a clip of matt, my own personal idol winner:


speaking of soulful, i'm really enjoying this song as of late...


i'm getting excited about L.A. i'm hoping i can hit up a church out there & maybe even invite some friends to try it out with me.

i joined gold's gym & my friend ray has been training me for free. my favorite is the bodyjam class. it's like a hip hop class with choreography & fun music. i freakin love it. you should see the dance we learned saturday. oh my freaky in da club wonderfulness. that woman told us to make it rain & shake it like a salt shaker. that's what i'm talkin about.

last thing: i was kinda talking for a second on the way home from the ski trip about this, but have you ever noticed that you can think someone is super attractive and once you get to know them they become incredibly not? ex. i was at a friends house & she watches some show on MTV about whitney from the hills so i was watching with her and there was some girl on there named olivia who i thought was so pretty. dude, at the end of the show i could hardly look at her face anymore without cringing because she was such a bitch. ugly!

and i'm not just talking about outward appearances. i can think someone is physically attractive, he can say all the "right things/answers" for how he wants to be perceived & how he wants me to see him & i can think- wow, this guy is really something. but over time the person he really is on the inside begins to creep out & he becomes more & more unattractive in every way. this has happened to me on more than 1 occasion. am i just a horrible judge of character? do people ever think this about me? i mean, i know everyone is human & a horrible sinner & Christ in us is our only redeeming quality, but for the love, at least try to be humble, treat people with respect, put others above yourself, stop using each other, etc. this goes for girls, too. and if you ever see ugliness inside of me, please tell me & help me before it gets out of hand. thanks.